Home Again.

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Just got back from the sendoff party for azrhey and pphaneuf. It was a bittersweet affair. Lots of laughing and fun, but underneath was (at least for me) the subtext that this is bringing us one step closer to a separation I am not looking forward to.

Later in the evening, sitting in the memorial area dedicated to the memory of denizsarikaya, it got a bit much to take. It seems that many of the folks that mean the most to me are scattering to the four winds. It does not mean the end of friendships -- they are too strong for that -- but it means the end of a time when we were all together and communication was easy.

Communication seems hard already, and distance has not yet begun to separate us. I try, in my halting way, to tell folks that they are important to me, that I love them and that I will not easily give up my friendships with them, but words are a poor medium to transmit such feelings. Not for the first time, tonight I wished there were some way to let someone into my head, to give them a window onto my thoughs, so that they could know, really know just how much they mean to me.

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[jdhobbes.livejournal.com]

Words are clumsy. Language is inadequate. Somethings are too complex, too primal to express in words and have it convey all of its meaning. And even if you try, it can convey the wrong meaning, if ya take my meaning.

Sometimes, it's enough for you to know how much these friendships mean. Sometimes, gestures and acts can show (rather than tell) how much these friendships mean.

Where is this memorial area to Deniz? I did a little something in February to her memory, but if there's a memorial, I'd like to visit it.

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The party was held at NITI, Deniz' old place of work. They've dedicated part of the recreational area to her. It has her gaming table, some of her bookshelves with her books, and a few photos of her.

[talyesin.livejournal.com]

I've often thought, if we were a race of telepaths, that sure, they'd be no more privacy, but there would be so much more understanding between people, that it would be worth the trade-off.

If there was some way to filter out the naughty bits, that is.

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I mostly don't see a need to filter out the naughty bits, but maybe thats just me.

[talyesin.livejournal.com]

Hell son, your naughty thoughts need some spice then. My naughty thoughts definitely border on the nasty.

And if that weren't FYI, believe me, we're done here. Ain't going no further.

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Nah, I think we just have different experiences. The last time I told a woman what I really wanted in a sexual relationship, I ended up married to her.

Who knew we were that kink-compatible?

[kishiriadgr.livejournal.com]

Where are they going? I'm not on Aarzhey's f-list, so this is the first I've heard of it.

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She and pphaneuf are moving to Toulouse, France. The party marked the one-month countdown. They leave June 5th.