Yesterday.

[swestrup]

I did okay during most of yesterday. I managed to get my work done and actually had constructive suggestions to add during an engineering meeting. When I arrived at Denzo's place that evening though, it all came rushing back. I was asked to try and pick something out to keep as a memento of Deniz, and the very idea had me in tears in no time. I even ended up unexpectedly sobbing in the bathroom for 20 minutes when I went to answer a call of nature. In the end I chose a small set of stone elephants that Denzo owned. I used to play with them whenever I was sitting around idle at her place, and they are one of the few things that will forever remind me of her. In the end though, I just couldn't stand the thought of taking them with me when I left that evening. It somehow seemed to bring home just how final death really is.

Now though, I'm thinking that I'll have to go back and make a special trip to pick them up, since, as sad as it makes me to take them, I think I'll be sadder yet if I don't have something to look at and remind me of all the good times we shared.

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[blacksquiggles.livejournal.com]

that sounds like a very good idea indeed ...
it must be a very difficult thing indeed