Yesterday.

[swestrup]

I did okay during most of yesterday. I managed to get my work done and actually had constructive suggestions to add during an engineering meeting. When I arrived at Denzo's place that evening though, it all came rushing back. I was asked to try and pick something out to keep as a memento of Deniz, and the very idea had me in tears in no time. I even ended up unexpectedly sobbing in the bathroom for 20 minutes when I went to answer a call of nature. In the end I chose a small set of stone elephants that Denzo owned. I used to play with them whenever I was sitting around idle at her place, and they are one of the few things that will forever remind me of her. In the end though, I just couldn't stand the thought of taking them with me when I left that evening. It somehow seemed to bring home just how final death really is.

Now though, I'm thinking that I'll have to go back and make a special trip to pick them up, since, as sad as it makes me to take them, I think I'll be sadder yet if I don't have something to look at and remind me of all the good times we shared.

Comments

[blacksquiggles.livejournal.com]

that sounds like a very good idea indeed ...
it must be a very difficult thing indeed

[sps.livejournal.com]

I am glad you chose the elephants.

[sfllaw.livejournal.com]

May her memory always live fondly in your heart.

Photo Montage

[jdhobbes.livejournal.com]

I'm going to put a link to this photo montage to Deniz here since you seemed to have known her best. If you feel others would appreciate this, maybe you can send it along?

http://www.documentia.ca/FTP/Deniz.wmv

When I made this, I could only save it in WMV format, but if people have a had time viewing it, maybe someone else can convert it?

RE: Photo Montage.

[designergirl.livejournal.com]

Downloading it now. I would be happy to convert it for you if you like, just let me know what file type you want.

Re: Photo Montage.

[swestrup]

Could you convert it to .mpg format please? I think that's regularly viewable on Linux boxes.

Re: Photo Montage.

[jdhobbes.livejournal.com]

MPEG should be a nice generic format. Do you have a place to put it swestrup? If not, I can put the mpeg version on my FTP site (to replace the wmv version).

Or maybe quicktime would be more generic? I don't know.

Any feedback would be appreciated. I hope I captured some of her spirit in that montage.

Re: Photo Montage.

[swestrup]

I do have a server that I can put up the file on.

RE: Photo Montage.

[designergirl.livejournal.com]

Sure thing! I'll post a comment to you later with the file!

Re: Photo Montage.

[swestrup]

Any idea when we can get the .mpg?

Re: Photo Montage.

[jdhobbes.livejournal.com]

If you're going to put the montage on your server (in both formats), let me know and I'll take it down from my site (I'll eventually need the space for work).

When you put a link to these videos for others to see, just put a link to my LJ account for credit.

Re: Photo Montage.

[swestrup]

Yeah, I'm planning put up the Montage and probably a few other things on my server. Somewhere I have a .ogg file of Denzo singing, for instance.

RE: Photo Montage.

[designergirl.livejournal.com]

Sorry it took a while! I converted it to .MPG like you requested! I uploaded it to my server space so that you can download it from there.

Photo Montage Video (http://home.iprimus.com.au/dsynrgirl/livejournal/DenizMPG.mpg)

Re: Photo Montage.

[swestrup]

Thanks! Just so you know, I've been putting this stuff up on my server at:

http://sti.pooq.com/archive/Deniz/

RE: Photo Montage.

[designergirl.livejournal.com]

No need to thank me, I was happy to do it! =)

I assume it worked ok for you then?

Re: Photo Montage.

[swestrup]

Yup!

Re: Photo Montage

[swestrup]

I doubt I knew her best, but I appreciate the montage, and I'll let everyone know where they can download it.

[kishiriadgr.livejournal.com]

Yes, if you don't take something of hers, you'll always regret it. I wear my dead relative's clothes when I can. Maybe it's a wacko Aztec thing in my case, though.