New Record for Bad Valentines Day.

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It has GOT to be a record. Trying to deal with the recent loss of someone I cared for deeply, while the love of my life is in California by now, although I haven't heard from her yet.

I should have been asleep an hour ago, but I just recently got home from meeting Deniz' Mother and Brother.

I haven't been able say much about my feelings, because my throat chokes up and refuses to talk. I haven't been able to write either, because of being blinded by the tears. I'm only managing to post this because I've cried so much today, no more tears will come.

I'm just glad I have the friends I do. They have been a great help. We have all been supporting each other through this, and I suppose together we'll be able endure it.

And now I go to bed.

Comments

[designergirl.livejournal.com]

You'll probably find yourself crying for a little while longer and that's perfectly normal when you lose someone close to you! As time goes on you will find a way to get through this and remember Deniz for the great person she was and the reason why you two were friends in the first place.

She has reminded me of how precious life is and I thank her for that.

Keep up the support network and keep going.