Actually, I've been awake since around 1:00 pm. I slept in because I couldn't sleep again last night, because I was stressed that my web/mail server had died AGAIN and I was going to have to spend a day or more fixing it, and who knows what's wrong with it now.
Once upon a time this wouldn't have bothered me much, but I'm under so much stress right now that any little bit extra feels like doom. Its making it very hard for me to function right now. There are things that desperately need doing (like finishing the repairs on two bathrooms) that are getting done extremely slowly because my frustration levels are so high right now that anything at all that goes wrong when I'm trying to fix things completely derails me.
This is, of course, in addition to the fact that growing up in the environment I did, I equate home fix-up projects with terror, unreasoning demands, and disaster. I deliberately destroyed all of my mechanical aptitude when I was a kid specifically so that I would always be the last choice when it came to doing any fixing up around the house. Is it any wonder that I'm now finding it difficult to fix things, especially when I have all of these long-established habits of being a clutz?
Once upon a time this wouldn't have bothered me much, but I'm under so much stress right now that any little bit extra feels like doom. Its making it very hard for me to function right now. There are things that desperately need doing (like finishing the repairs on two bathrooms) that are getting done extremely slowly because my frustration levels are so high right now that anything at all that goes wrong when I'm trying to fix things completely derails me.
This is, of course, in addition to the fact that growing up in the environment I did, I equate home fix-up projects with terror, unreasoning demands, and disaster. I deliberately destroyed all of my mechanical aptitude when I was a kid specifically so that I would always be the last choice when it came to doing any fixing up around the house. Is it any wonder that I'm now finding it difficult to fix things, especially when I have all of these long-established habits of being a clutz?