Good Bye Deniz.

I'm still far too upset to write about or talk about it much right now, but now enough people have been told both IRL and on LJ that I don't think I need to keep quiet about it anymore.

Last friday night denizsarikaya, one of my very best friends died. I have no words to express the grief I'm feeling. Maybe later I'll be able to write about what she meant to me.

For now, I have to get dressed and go to work, and I don't know how I'll manage. The alternative though is to say at home and stare at the walls and cry some more, and I don't think I could handle that either.

Good bye Denzo. How I miss you.

New Record for Bad Valentines Day.

It has GOT to be a record. Trying to deal with the recent loss of someone I cared for deeply, while the love of my life is in California by now, although I haven't heard from her yet.

I should have been asleep an hour ago, but I just recently got home from meeting Deniz' Mother and Brother.

I haven't been able say much about my feelings, because my throat chokes up and refuses to talk. I haven't been able to write either, because of being blinded by the tears. I'm only managing to post this because I've cried so much today, no more tears will come.

I'm just glad I have the friends I do. They have been a great help. We have all been supporting each other through this, and I suppose together we'll be able endure it.

And now I go to bed.