Sharing My Disease
Feb. 12th, 2009 08:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swestrupThis cold has one unique feature that I haven't encountered before. It not only makes me stupid at time, it also seems to make me smart at others. While I've been ill I've been puttering along with some minor projects that don't require much in the way of movement, and which are not important enough to matter if I screw up. Basically its just been a way to use up time while waiting to be better.
Sometimes I'll be looking at stuff that I've worked on before -- that I know intimately -- and I have no idea what I'm seeing, and can't follow the logic at all. That much is normal for Sti with a cold. Other times though, I'll look at my code and not only know exactly what it does, but I'll see a hundred ways to improve it that never occurred to me before. My mind will be literally racing with ideas.
These moments of -- I guess the best term is 'manic thinking' are not necessarily all for the good. I always find it hard to sleep when sick because my sinuses act up and make it hard to breathe while laying down. Now I have the added burden of sometimes waking up, like this morning, and find that despite still being extremely tired, my mind is racing too much to get any shut eye.
So, now I'm surfing the net, half-tired, half-manic, waiting for my mind to slow down so that I can go and take a nap.
Sometimes I'll be looking at stuff that I've worked on before -- that I know intimately -- and I have no idea what I'm seeing, and can't follow the logic at all. That much is normal for Sti with a cold. Other times though, I'll look at my code and not only know exactly what it does, but I'll see a hundred ways to improve it that never occurred to me before. My mind will be literally racing with ideas.
These moments of -- I guess the best term is 'manic thinking' are not necessarily all for the good. I always find it hard to sleep when sick because my sinuses act up and make it hard to breathe while laying down. Now I have the added burden of sometimes waking up, like this morning, and find that despite still being extremely tired, my mind is racing too much to get any shut eye.
So, now I'm surfing the net, half-tired, half-manic, waiting for my mind to slow down so that I can go and take a nap.
