Dreams.

[swestrup]

I am, somewhat reluctantly, awake. My getting up in the mornings didn't last for more than a couple mornings before I had a night when I couldn't sleep until 6:00 am. So now my body want to sleep in until 4:00 pm every day, but I'm not letting it. Instead I've been setting my alarm for noon or 1:00pm and dragging my body out of bed.

Having an alarm wake me up makes it more likely for me to be able to remember my dreams. Not that that is always such a good thing. This morning's dream was about me designing a new and improved package manager for Linux. Unlike certain geniuses who wake up with wonderful ideas or designs in their heads, all I'll say about my dream design is that it would truly suck if someone were dumb enough to try to implement it.

The day before however, I had an absolutely wonderful dream which I am letting fade from memory because it contained completely unacceptable content on a number of different axes. So it was fun, but also illegal, immoral, unethical and definitely non-PC. azrhey once told me that she hopes there never exists such a thing as a dream scanner because she doesn't want anyone to know what goes on in her head at night. Well, I've now had one of those dreams.

Comments

[azrhey.livejournal.com]

it doesn't happen often but sometimes I dream horrible things that I seem to enjoy a lot in my dream. Like having sex with most innapropriate family member, pedophilia, torture, murder, etc. I wake up in cold sweats and feel horrible for the rest of the day. Sometimes, I prefer bad dreams where a loved one dies, because at least I wake up sad and deppressed but not disgusted with myself!!!

[swestrup]

Yeah, that's the sort of dream it was for me. I didn't wake up more than mildly disgusted with myself. I can figure out what twisted parts of my psyche contributed what perverted bits of the dream, and I have long since come to terms with the fact that there are things that sometimes show up in my fantasies that would horrify me in real life.