Bleah.

[swestrup]

Its another one of those nights where the plan was to already be asleep by now, but there are too many distracting thoughts racing through my head -- typical midlife crisis sorts of thoughts. Where am I going? What do I want from life? What should I do now?

Not exactly conducive to sleep, so I'm sitting up and reading LJ and surfing the web until my brain gives up and shuts down.

Comments

[kishiriadgr.livejournal.com]

I'll try to entertain you cause I'm drunk!!!!!

[swestrup]

Ah, well I at last fell asleep by reading boring physics books until my eyes grew heavy. I guess you shall have to entertain me in person with your drunkenness sometime, instead.

[ims.livejournal.com]

Given that I've had exactly these sort of thoughts well back to high school, I'm never sure whether I'm having a midlfe crisis or not. What's the minimum age for a midlife crisis? Why does it have a apecial name when it seems to be the normal state of affairs?

[swestrup]

Well, its not like these questions didn't hit me in High School as well, but they got pushed to the back burner once I had a career. I was sort of too busy living day-to-day to step back and ask if things were going the way I wanted. Besides it was always hard to say if they were or weren't going to work out for the best.

Now without a steady job and with 20 years of experience in my chosen career, I find myself asking if it was the right choice. I had always planned to be some sort of research physicist, and now in hindsight I keep asking if that wouldn't have been better.

[ims.livejournal.com]

I suppose the difference is that I never really acquired a career, so the period of questioning has been continuous.