Bad Brain -- No Sleepy.

[swestrup]

I went to lay down to sleep, and all of a sudden I was assaulted by multiple memories of Deniz, and by a terrible sadness that she wasn't at thebabynancy's party yesterday, nor will she be at any of the ones to come. Sleep suddenly seems far away, so I'm going to go downstairs and see if there is any bad TV that I can use to numb my mind.

Comments

[designergirl.livejournal.com]

Aww, that's sad! I'm sorry you're still feeling so deeply saddened! Eventually you'll be able to think of her and smile and think of the good times and not be sad. How can someone ever be gone if you loved them when they were alive and that love is still in your heart?

[kyotto.livejournal.com]

*hugs* That was what I was thinking while shopping with Nancy a bit before was ah I can attack Deniz and make her drink a little... a little... lol. *hugs* I know... it's hard sometimes :)

C.

[johnnycampbell.livejournal.com]

I don't know the person you're referring to, or how she died, but as someone who lost a best friend to suicide 4 months ago, I can totally relate. Perhaps you can tell me about it sometime.

Sometimes, you just miss the person and the memories are so strong it's overwhelming. I have my moments too.

But yeah, it's hard. I've been saying you never get over it, but you do get on with it. One must.

[swestrup]

I wrote about it not long after she died. You can read about it here:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/swestrup/403726.html