Bad Dreams.

I moved out of the family home quite a long while ago. I think it was back around 1990, although the exact year has faded from memory since I did nothing to record it. In any case, it was 18 or so years ago, so I would think I should have stopped having dreams about conflicts with my brothers...

Oh well, its probably a good thing that I woke up now anyway. I'm still dead tired after 9 hours of sleep, which isn't too surprising considering how much I had the night before, but if I'd slept much longer in one go I could have triggered another migraine. I figure I'll read my email for a bit and then head back to bed. The break should let me sleep a fair bit more without causing the migraine fairy to visit:

I guess I is awake.

The going-back-to-sleep thing didn't really work out. Oh well, I knew there was a chance of that. Dead tired or not, once my brain has decided I'm getting up, there's not much I can do about it. I suppose I'll just get an early start to my day and probably go to bed early tonight.

Nap Attack.

Had a sudden 'Nap Attack' around 9:00 am this morning and crawled back into bed. Six hours later I awoke feeling more human. I think I needed it. I probably need more too, but I'm just happy that it was a successful nap; one where I wake up feeling less tired than when I went to sleep.

Pondering

I'm currently just sitting in my newly clean office, relaxing. This office hasn't been either a very productive or a very relaxing place for some time. I need a clean and tidy office in which to think and do real work and, when I actually have a contract or telecommuting job, I keep the place tidy and I find I can be very productive here. In the interim I tend to let half-finished projects pile up with the result that the place became somewhere where I didn't want to work and where it was hard to finish any of the projects taking up space because there was no space to work.

The main reason the office got cleaned up was that I desperately needed to find my misplaced passport that I (mistakenly) thought would most likely be in here. The second reason, in the back of my mind, was that I may very well end up returning before the actual end of my contract and end up doing telecommuting work from here. In that case, it would be most efficient for me to return to an already clean and ready-to-go office so that there would be a minimal break in my work flow.

Whatever the reason, I find it startling how much more calm I feel when I'm in here now. Not having huge half-finished projects staring at me surely has something to do with that. In any case I am going to just sit here and enjoy it a bit. My life has been far too full of clutter, stress and anxiety lately and I'll gladly take a break from that.

I do have one or two things that I need to get done today, but they are fairly minor amounts of work, and should not take me long. So, for right now, I'm just gonna sit back and relax. I need it.