Depression.
Feb. 11th, 2004 11:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swestrupUgh. I'm still awake, although I've been dead tired since 4:00 pm this afternoon, and actually tried to go to bed between 7:00 and 9:00 pm, to no avail. I just toss and turn and can't get my mind to slow down enough to sleep. I know what the cause is too. Today I got a letter from EI saying my benefits just ran out. Last Saturday's payment is the last one I'm getting from them. (This means that my count was correct, but that their automated status system wasn't. Why am I not surprised.) So, from now on, I have zero income.
What with credit cards and a cheque I got today, I can probably survive for another 3 or 4 months before things get truely desperate, but that's small consolation. Happiness, it has been said, its a positive cash flow, and right now mine is pure negative. I'm trying to keep a positive outlook on things; in my current state I at least have the potential for a good job, as opposed to being actually stuck behind a grill at McDonalds and hating it, but somehow that rings hollow, even to me.
I can't even afford any Creme De Cacao so that I could have a stiff drink to help me to sleep. Maybe I'll just play solitaire till I collapse.
What with credit cards and a cheque I got today, I can probably survive for another 3 or 4 months before things get truely desperate, but that's small consolation. Happiness, it has been said, its a positive cash flow, and right now mine is pure negative. I'm trying to keep a positive outlook on things; in my current state I at least have the potential for a good job, as opposed to being actually stuck behind a grill at McDonalds and hating it, but somehow that rings hollow, even to me.
I can't even afford any Creme De Cacao so that I could have a stiff drink to help me to sleep. Maybe I'll just play solitaire till I collapse.
